This week has been…awful. There’s been so much stress put on me indirectly these last couple of months, because I’ve had to be the strong, encouraging person. Now I need someone to do the same for me. Everything feels like it’s being over-compacted into my brain and I feel like my head is going to explode. I’m at such a transitional phase in life. Everyone needs me at once and I just need someone.
And we lost another soul yesterday. Another one. Every time this happens everyone says they’re going to change but two weeks later it’s all the same again and we lose ourselves. It’s almost becoming numb and hopeless. Wake up and realize that the petty things don’t matter, and learn to spread more love.
If my heart didn’t belong to my lover, I would get out of this town again. I’d fall off of the map.
I know with experience that time heals though.
The funny thing about Christianity, is that when you ask a Christian a question that has anything to do with why they believe what they believe and why it’s more correct than someone who doesn’t believe in god, they just dance around it and don’t give a straight forward answer.